We Fear Change
Last week something unusual happened in my house. Chris and I were having one of our regular "full and frank discussions". It had been going on for a while and frankly my jaw was beginning to ache with the constant lip flapping shrillery. Then Chris said this "You are such a nightmare sometimes! All you do is contradict me!" I was stumped. How does one argue with that? You can't say "no I'm not!" without proving his point, but obviously you can't agree with it either for fear of rendering all previous statements invalid. The argument ended right there, I'm not going to pretend my lip did not continue to flap - but no words came out. I had none. Don't tell him I said this, but that was a fantastic way to finish what was probably a pointless discussion. The fact that I can't even remember why we were arguing speaks volumes. But it has caused a change in our debates - every time we approach any disharmony he can wheel out this nuclear option and it all shuts down. Consequently we spend long hours with me in sulky silence while he vibrates with gleeful smuggery. Sigh. I do not like this development. Though I do accept that there are huge benefits to the early shut down of what could be interminable disagreements. Why is everything that's good for you so unpleasant - the list is endless - sweating, spinach, Buckley's, quinoa, de-toxing, studying, saving for retirement, budgeting ...?
On another note I asked Chris what kind of change he hated most. He answered "dimes probably - they're useless and too small". I tried again, remembering his tendency toward literal interpretations "Chris - what life altering situations do you dread most?". His answer? "All of them" which is guess is fairly unequivocal. I actually LOVE change. Good or bad makes little difference and I'm always keen to get started with the new challenge. I love moving house, moving to a new country is even better, even shifting the furniture about at home pleases me immensely. Any shiny new thing is cause for celebration in the world of a child after all.
All Saints has been in a state of constant change since I started working here. The Ministry and Mission process was exciting as we asked God's will for us and sought the resources to carry it out. And we did. The most obvious change is to the building but I can absolutely see an enormous shift in the parishioners themselves too. It feels like everyone has become more emotionally invested in the life of the Parish and in the building of the church (as in, the people, not the structure). More people "pop in" for a chat, a little tidy up, to clean something, or to inquire about the well being of other parishioners now. I'm so grateful to have been here while this is happening. New bonds have definitely been formed, old relationships strengthened and it seems the parish is pretty healthy. We are ready for whatever comes next and although no one could ever replace Elizabeth, it's exciting to see who will be with us as we move onto the next step. Be excited! This is going to be awesome!